Reflect, relook & still pondering... :~|
I have joined my current company since 9th Dec this year and everyone has been questioning and asking me how is my job,...blah blah! haha... frankly speaking, I think its still too early to come to a conclusion whether it suits me anot. I have been trying to catch up since I am new to data migration though I know SQL, Oracle... However, there are many readings and alot of self-study and explorations are required on my side alone to juz get the scripts out! Thats only my first task and my colleague had drew out my task map for the coming year! I still has a long way to go and I had told myself to hold on to it no matter what happens! I just hope things will go smoothly since it is my very first job which I hopes to complete the phases. Oh now is the time to give all my efforts and hope they are not wasted. But I am prepared for ups and downs as the world is not perfect and I have to go through all these hurdles which I believe will makes a difference! Though I may fall and have to climb up and continue this long arduous road ahead, the most important lessons are that I can learn and gain new knowledge and experience. In addition, the satisfaction to the job is the only drive that keeps me going! Gambate! :D
Common manz, I am still young, there still a long way to go, I keep telling myself that there are hopes and interesting life waiting ahead for me to experience! Now I truly understand and deeply appreciate the hard work that my dad had went through! Last time, I just had this concept that its his responsibility since he is the breadwinner! What a wrong concept to have, there 's no free lunch in this world and I should not take things for granted! He toiled so hard just to get me through my education and be a useful person to repay the society! Dad, you are simply FANTASTIC! Yah, not forgetting the greatest love, my mom who takes so great care of me and my siblings! So no matter what, I will not work just to earn a living but also hopes to provide them a luxury life and enjoy life myself also! We should live to learn to enjoy what is presented to us! :D
Long Story..
Hmmm....there 's too much happening whether sad or happy and I dunnoe where shall I start from. It begins with a happy celebration where I witnessed my good friend, xueling's solemnisation at the zoo on 12th Dec. When we reached there, we were received like VIP where the chartered tram came to fetch us to the destination which is the garden by the lake. Fortunately, there was a transport else I couldnt imagine we have to walk a long way on heels and sweating like hell! haha... However, the weather looks gloomy with dark clouds gathering high above us. I started to get worried and indeed the heavy downpour was unavoidable! It's such a pity to have rain else we will be witnessing her solemnisation under the sun where she came with her fiance in a horse carriage. Though heaven was kind of spoilsport, I still enjoyed it. It was so touching when xueling and her fiance say the 2 words "I do"! Guess most of my girlfriends beside me also felt the same -> "When will it be our turn??!!"! haha... After the touching scene, my stomach is famished but was served with a sumptuous high tea buffet. Every happy events came with a ending and so its time we leave for the hospital. During that day, I had received news that another friend of mine couldnt make it for the solemnisation today as her mom was hospitalised and her condition is critical. When the few of us make our way there, we were extremely exhausted but still we make the effort there hoping to console our dear fren. Before I reached the ward where my fren was, my heart was beating fast as I dunnoe what to say to her. It has been quite sometime since I last see her and we used to be close fren but due to a small misunderstanding, we kind of drifted apart. When I saw her and approached her, I saw her eyes were red with tears. Its such a depressing moment, my eyes started to feel dry and tears started to swell but I tried to hold myself for I know I should be consoling my fren now and not crying together with her. We managed to get her to go down to the canteen but still failed to persuade her to have some drinks or food. Then suddenly, she received a call and had to went up to her mom's ward. So the rest of us followed up after a while. We stayed at the corridor since not more than 2 visitors are allowed. We can only see the reflection from the window that my fren and her siblings were all staying vigil outside the room as the nurse checked out her mother. Her mom is still in coma and my fren had tried to talk to her hoping she could response which instead agitated her and cause her blood pressure to shoot up abnormally. Hence, the nurse was trying to calm the patient down. The doctor had told my fren to be prepared for the worst as her mom has blood infection and is still unconsious. I can see the fear and anger when my fren told us. Of course thats a natural reaction for anyone who have their kins lying down there! So we stayed for a while to accompany her before we left. The only thing I could do was to console her and encourage her to be brave and look optimistic. After which I left the hospital, I suddenly feel that human is so fragile and what I wanna do is to ensure that my family are healthy and happy. Its really a sudden change of feelings from a joyous occassion to a sad moment that day. However, I was so exhausted that the only thing came to my mind was to sleep the moment I came out from my shower. Since that day, I have tried to sms my friend to encourage her and to assure her that if she needs help, feel free to approach me or the other frenz cause when one is down, the support from fren or anyone she trust is very important. At least there's something I can do to help her, I will be more than happy and willing to. So sad...
